When Your Child Is Just Like You
Thursday, January 28th, 2010
When I look at Avery I see so much of myself. His personality is a carbon copy of mine … especially from childhood.
He’s cautious.
He’s kind.
He’s a people pleaser to the core.
I value those traits in him, but they sometimes scare me to death as well.
Last night, I realized when looking at his folder that he had gotten in trouble at school the day before for messing around in line in the hallway. He “forgot” his folder at school that night. Later, he reluctantly admitted that it was so I wouldn’t find out.
This is the third time this 6 weeks that he’s gotten in trouble for something of this nature. And, although, he’s an excellent student and this is not cause for alarm … it sends me over the edge. Each of the times, he’s explained what happened and it boils down to defending himself (mostly from “line cutters”).
Defending himself. It makes me furious.
“Why?” you might ask. “You are totally over-reacting.” Is that what you’re thinking?
My fear is that this will begin the spiral that I felt as a kid. I surrounded myself with friends who ran over me. I look back now and remember the teasing that I endured just to have a friend to play with at recess. I can recall doing poorly on a test and throwing the paper away before I left the class so that my mom wouldn’t see it.
No parent wants their child to fall into the same traps that they did. Seeing them make those mistakes and attempting to steer them in another direction is the most trying thing that I’ve had to deal with as a mom.
Avery is a wonderful child. Bright, honest, compassionate, gifted, and wise beyond his years. He knows the difference between right and wrong, and has involved parents who love him very much. I know that he’ll fine. In fact, he’ll be better than fine … but this parenting business and trusting that you’re doing the right thing is tough.
… and I mean TOUGH.













